Rant from deep last year

I'm just letting everyone know that I'm probably going to go insane pretty soon here, our US and my STATE government has violated my rights to pursue ANY kind of HAPPINESS, or anything else either!!! I CAN'T EVEN PURSUE MY COVID STIMULUS or SO-CALLED RELIEF money like millions of OTHER Americans got! That's because I am no longer a human being and they can treat me anyway they want! Even garnishing my tiny wages at 25% DURING THE COVID PANDEMIC EVEN, for a case that i WON in court, and shit I didn't even do! I've been calling the state governor Tony Evers and "they" won't help me either. After 1/2 talking to a "spokesperson" I didn't even finish and he just hangs up. And I was actually talking decent & calm then, even cried at times. No compassion.

With a ton more stuff on your mind, like being garnished your tiny wages as a security guard at a rate of 25% for stuff you didn't even do, (like paying waushara county thousands of dollars for EMS bills and fake made up charges and another county for a case you were found NOT GUILTY OF by jury (yet they also are still making you pay over 7 thousand dollars for!) besides being technically disabled and BY LAW they can not garnish/attachments to yours wages if you're disabled, and doing that garnishing during the entire time of the Covid pandemic while never once taking one day off,,, or be ABLE TO,,, or claim unemployment because 'you' were not allowed it, being a security guard... so nothing extra in pay either, while the company that you were assigned to paid THEIR employees $3 an hour extra just for showing up! oh ya, and btw, you never ever got any COVID relief funds, yet... not even the first one: and certainly no child tax credits OR so-called "earned income credits all these years (since starting college back in 2018?) the gov refuses to give it to you. (Plus tons more other bad things of course BESIDES you'r increasingly poor health), please tell me, would YOU still believe in His Love?

Did I tell you that when the "pandemic" hit, and millions got paid for it, and didn't even have to go to work, if they were scared, and collect even more than normal UI benefits when they didn't even need it, that us security guards were not even allowed,,, to choose to stay home. They sent me a letter, saying we MUST WORK, because of our position was too needed... we are considered first responders and not allowed to choose to stay home and collect unemployment! I didn't even get anything extra!? Not even for all the extra work taking their temperatures : stopping every possibly sick employee, and then ask 12 health questions, as they breathed on me, and do that to over 100 possible covid exposed people. We got nothing extra, and when I DID finally get sick, they refused to pay me for that one week, because they said that the state has stopping paying it already, so I got a week off WITHOUT PAY.

I'm confused as to why people cannot understand why I wanted to and already began planning the way I was gonna end my own life. They can't fathom why! AND they say I don't have the right to take a life, even if it's my own.

Is it the "homeless aspect" that made you not want the case?

 Because even the hospital ER 3 days ago treated me like I was hassle a burdin and a complete piece of trash when they found out I was " homeless". 2 days lbefore I got attacked & punched in the head 6 times by another (now ex) resident at St Johns Ministries men's shelter, because my head hurt so bad, everything was hurting and painfull, I started getting really blurry vision and needed to get it checked out. The doctor was a real jerk.. he thinks it's just another homeless bum faking it so they can lay in a warm room & soft bed for awhile. He got mad when I didn't immediately spring forward so he could listen to my back....and got me out of there as quick as humanly possibility. They put me out in the cold that January day.

I've been homeless a few different times, so I know how much different we get treated.