Posts

THIS IS HOW I FEEL TODAY!!!

THIS IS JUST A START  I want you to know my mind is shot...... I have a TBI and I can't control it and the headaches are too much for me to handle, and I can't get any assistance in this state I live in the government been nothing but ASSHOLES to me, and I should have been a millionaire by now with the injuries I have, from work place incident from 5 years ago when I had that concussion. But I can't get a God damn dime from them or my gov and I can't work anymore so they take away even more benefits. It's been so cold here all week and I'm living in the truck with my 2 cats ( were my emotional support animals but I can't keep them, I almost hurt them today) and because I won't part with my cats they refuse to let me stay at ANY of the homeless shelters in town. I broke down and my truck also now has no brakes, it's all junk and not worth fixing. It's been below zero So I went to a motel and over drafted my checking account over$500 and now I hav...

Letter to My Brothers & Sisters

Image
You need to watch this, for brotherly sake: https://youtu.be/HxSAVP-e4Cw?si=c1ELLWT-pN2h41r8 I don't know if this number is still my brother Jerry's or not, I get no more answers. So I don't know if you even bothered to watch that last youtube video I just found,/sent you with that guy talking about why WHY LIFE "might" be the way it's been going for the last 30 some years now... or more. As a deepening believer, with what seems like impeccable faith, every word this guy says in this one video made perfect sense. ... Besides, like I told you, finding out I was "miss-diagnosed" as a child, I don't have a learning disability - I'm Autistic, with ADHD, besides the toxic glues & lead paints I used & breathed as a child she said didn't help much. ...of course being teased all the time at school, 1st grade on, for just about everything from my "chink eyes" to "here comes the retard for the Special Ed class!"  And t...

IS YOUTUBE'S MONITARY POLICY FAIR? Must have over 1,000 subs plus millions of hours of watch time!

Image
@aninternetnpc#$#&# told me in a YouTube comment I made about hating YouTube for their biased behavior & corrupt policies ; Dude if you hate YouTube so much t8han why use it? I wrote this in response: Dude, LOTS OF PEOPLE end up hating the owners of a company once they start using their product lol. What are you, 5 years old?  Some people get paid millions of dollars from YouTube you know 😮 yes, but it takes a LOT of VERY HARD WORK and dedication and TIME, to get to that level - before we can even start to be paid. After 6 or 7 years of this hard work and time, and STILL not making a cent, and after seeing on my graphs (that is a creators statistics in case you are only 5 years old, I don't mind explaining it to you, but I'm trying to think of the simplest way so that even a 5 year old could understand it,,,) i called them out about their favoritism, kinda like your kindergarten teacher gives 3 candy canes to the kids she likes best, and none to the rest o...

HAVE YOU LOST EVERYTHING?

I GOTTA SHARE THIS! Everyone needs to hear this! I believe you. Yours was the first comment I read, and it was as if I was reading a comment about my own life, and I know I never watched this video before, or even 'was' subscribed, but I seriously had to look at WHO LEFT THIS comment, to verify for myself it wasn't something I wrote. I believe paths cross,,,  Like finding out that I'm not the only one... that I'm not alone in this storm. Just like coming ACROSS this very video, from a man I don't even know, that had me at every word spoke, even backing up many times at different spots, not because I didn't hear it or understand him no, it was because I was amazed at his perspective, and how everything he said, has, and is happening again these last few years but it's more compounded now than ever!!! I can put everything he explained side by side with my life span, it lines up PERFECTLY!  The way he talks even just got to me, straight to the heart n soul,...

What Does True GOD Mean?

@lisasmith2103 Truth is like REAL, not man made religions or man made idols... Like demonic/democratic run Hollywood ellights makes and brainwashes people into worshipping, or "denominations" of so many different versions of man-made-up ways to worship "their god" in their building who are all in competition with each other, to collect as much money from as many people as possible. "True God" is the ONE & ONLY GOD, the ONE, the God who Created you (unless your not from His flock, in which case He will STILL accept you as a Foster child if you ask Him. He came to this Earth being born of flesh to speak His Own Word with His Own mouth, so believe could believe, and be saved. His name that was given Him was Jesus and he was known as "The Christ" . He is the Way, the Truth, and only HE can save you, if you believe in Him, God, who is The Holy Spirit, ( our Lord & Savior!) You can invite it into your soul to process for eternity. But you need...

Was it Reality or a Dream? Realistic vs. Fantasy?

I'm being ignored by everyone and I don't know who to turn to. I've been screwed over my entire life because I'm disabled "with a learning disability" as this STATE labeled me from 1st grade and I was "held-back" all the way to highschool graduation and was NOT ALLOWED to take classes like "debate class" and high-end science classes or others that I asked about because I was a "retard". Yet I was "brilliant in art & design". But I'm currently homeless because I keep getting screwed over by RICH PEOPLE with more money, because I was only a security guard or a janitor!!! and now Im suffering from among many things, a very bad concussion that left permanent brain damage from a workers comp case 5 years ago where I saved a woman getting beat up at work while I was on duty, only to get fired wrongfully a lawyer said, plus with the TBI and pain etc I'm looking at multi million $ settlement but yet I am not being tr...

Last Year & The Year Before. Old and new writings.

Ya, it's like one of the hardest things ive ever had to do, is finally to break down and ask for help. I'd rather do it myself, for anything, but when i feel too battered and torn to even wave around anymore, like, i become/became a breathing corpse, just sitting there. hating the mere thought to do ANYTHING!. Ive been going to see these agencies that 'help' people, and some are truly amazing, others are, "can i go home now?"... id been having a lot of issues with my health and my healthcare provider not addressing any of my issues, but some of that might be changing soon, as a lot of things are going to be "changing", including my phone service who was raping me and getting no help from them when i needed my phone replaced. Someone told me about Patreon and i did create an account, i had no way, up till recently to even add anything to it, i just need to build it up first, before i can ask anyone to "support" it. It's a good idea, and...