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THIS IS HOW I FEEL TODAY!!!

THIS IS JUST A START  I want you to know my mind is shot...... I have a TBI and I can't control it and the headaches are too much for me to handle, and I can't get any assistance in this state I live in the government been nothing but ASSHOLES to me, and I should have been a millionaire by now with the injuries I have, from work place incident from 5 years ago when I had that concussion. But I can't get a God damn dime from them or my gov and I can't work anymore so they take away even more benefits. It's been so cold here all week and I'm living in the truck with my 2 cats ( were my emotional support animals but I can't keep them, I almost hurt them today) and because I won't part with my cats they refuse to let me stay at ANY of the homeless shelters in town. I broke down and my truck also now has no brakes, it's all junk and not worth fixing. It's been below zero So I went to a motel and over drafted my checking account over$500 and now I hav...

Letter to My Brothers & Sisters

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You need to watch this, for brotherly sake: https://youtu.be/HxSAVP-e4Cw?si=c1ELLWT-pN2h41r8 I don't know if this number is still my brother Jerry's or not, I get no more answers. So I don't know if you even bothered to watch that last youtube video I just found,/sent you with that guy talking about why WHY LIFE "might" be the way it's been going for the last 30 some years now... or more. As a deepening believer, with what seems like impeccable faith, every word this guy says in this one video made perfect sense. ... Besides, like I told you, finding out I was "miss-diagnosed" as a child, I don't have a learning disability - I'm Autistic, with ADHD, besides the toxic glues & lead paints I used & breathed as a child she said didn't help much. ...of course being teased all the time at school, 1st grade on, for just about everything from my "chink eyes" to "here comes the retard for the Special Ed class!"  And t...

IS YOUTUBE'S MONITARY POLICY FAIR? Must have over 1,000 subs plus millions of hours of watch time!

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@aninternetnpc#$#&# told me in a YouTube comment I made about hating YouTube for their biased behavior & corrupt policies ; Dude if you hate YouTube so much t8han why use it? I wrote this in response: Dude, LOTS OF PEOPLE end up hating the owners of a company once they start using their product lol. What are you, 5 years old?  Some people get paid millions of dollars from YouTube you know 😮 yes, but it takes a LOT of VERY HARD WORK and dedication and TIME, to get to that level - before we can even start to be paid. After 6 or 7 years of this hard work and time, and STILL not making a cent, and after seeing on my graphs (that is a creators statistics in case you are only 5 years old, I don't mind explaining it to you, but I'm trying to think of the simplest way so that even a 5 year old could understand it,,,) i called them out about their favoritism, kinda like your kindergarten teacher gives 3 candy canes to the kids she likes best, and none to the rest o...

HAVE YOU LOST EVERYTHING?

I GOTTA SHARE THIS! Everyone needs to hear this! I believe you. Yours was the first comment I read, and it was as if I was reading a comment about my own life, and I know I never watched this video before, or even 'was' subscribed, but I seriously had to look at WHO LEFT THIS comment, to verify for myself it wasn't something I wrote. I believe paths cross,,,  Like finding out that I'm not the only one... that I'm not alone in this storm. Just like coming ACROSS this very video, from a man I don't even know, that had me at every word spoke, even backing up many times at different spots, not because I didn't hear it or understand him no, it was because I was amazed at his perspective, and how everything he said, has, and is happening again these last few years but it's more compounded now than ever!!! I can put everything he explained side by side with my life span, it lines up PERFECTLY!  The way he talks even just got to me, straight to the heart n soul,...

What Does True GOD Mean?

@lisasmith2103 Truth is like REAL, not man made religions or man made idols... Like demonic/democratic run Hollywood ellights makes and brainwashes people into worshipping, or "denominations" of so many different versions of man-made-up ways to worship "their god" in their building who are all in competition with each other, to collect as much money from as many people as possible. "True God" is the ONE & ONLY GOD, the ONE, the God who Created you (unless your not from His flock, in which case He will STILL accept you as a Foster child if you ask Him. He came to this Earth being born of flesh to speak His Own Word with His Own mouth, so believe could believe, and be saved. His name that was given Him was Jesus and he was known as "The Christ" . He is the Way, the Truth, and only HE can save you, if you believe in Him, God, who is The Holy Spirit, ( our Lord & Savior!) You can invite it into your soul to process for eternity. But you need...

Was it Reality or a Dream? Realistic vs. Fantasy?

I'm being ignored by everyone and I don't know who to turn to. I've been screwed over my entire life because I'm disabled "with a learning disability" as this STATE labeled me from 1st grade and I was "held-back" all the way to highschool graduation and was NOT ALLOWED to take classes like "debate class" and high-end science classes or others that I asked about because I was a "retard". Yet I was "brilliant in art & design". But I'm currently homeless because I keep getting screwed over by RICH PEOPLE with more money, because I was only a security guard or a janitor!!! and now Im suffering from among many things, a very bad concussion that left permanent brain damage from a workers comp case 5 years ago where I saved a woman getting beat up at work while I was on duty, only to get fired wrongfully a lawyer said, plus with the TBI and pain etc I'm looking at multi million $ settlement but yet I am not being tr...

Last Year & The Year Before. Old and new writings.

Ya, it's like one of the hardest things ive ever had to do, is finally to break down and ask for help. I'd rather do it myself, for anything, but when i feel too battered and torn to even wave around anymore, like, i become/became a breathing corpse, just sitting there. hating the mere thought to do ANYTHING!. Ive been going to see these agencies that 'help' people, and some are truly amazing, others are, "can i go home now?"... id been having a lot of issues with my health and my healthcare provider not addressing any of my issues, but some of that might be changing soon, as a lot of things are going to be "changing", including my phone service who was raping me and getting no help from them when i needed my phone replaced. Someone told me about Patreon and i did create an account, i had no way, up till recently to even add anything to it, i just need to build it up first, before i can ask anyone to "support" it. It's a good idea, and...

What I could of had vs what they Took from me.

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I've been homeless for over a year now... I gave up my very affordable apartment because I was buying a very affordable "home"... that I got screwed out of because some rich guy wanted it and to this day they still have my down payment because I refused to sign off on my accepted offer of $73,000  Nope, someone stole it from me, because they knew to that the 46' x 46' ATTATCHED Auto Repair shop, with a working car hoist, all insulated, heated, windows, electrical - needed nothing - plus the 3 bedroom house had a store front !!! I COULD OF HAD MY HOBBY SHOP/ART GALLERY!!! But what was ready crazy is the .89 acres of perfect flatland (with huge mature trees all along one edge,) alone, just the lot alone, zoned commercial, two properties from the biggest main intersection in the town,,, where there was a gas station/convenience store... Across from a really cool bar, and kiddy corner from the super club, it was an easy$300,000 without the buildings (plus...

Jesus said You Must Enter Heaven as a Little Child

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 And I suppose you're right about caring about people, I see people with disabilities and I sorta cry inside, hard to explain. This morning going into the library I watch the day care people tootin along crossing the street with a train of tiny humans all hitched together,, and a full sized one for the caboose. I had to stop and watch, then my eyes got wet. The little train turned my way so I stopped at the doors to watch them go past, but they turned again to come into the library, so I opened the door to let the the little train past though, and I made the sounds, the steam engine, the tootin, and then the clicky- clack sounds of the wheels and the little kids got such a kick out of that, laughing and most all said hello to me as they past by. After it was clear, and I could let the door close, i could finally let go of the tears that were pushing so hard against my eyeballs.  i was thinking those are our people of the future, our politicians and lawmakers and maybe even ...

BANNED - for trying to talk about suicide and bring awareness to everyone who DOESN'T KNOW SHIT!

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THEY REMOVE MY VIDEO BECAUSE I "SPOKE" ABOUT TRUTH IN OTHER THINGS - NOT BECAUSE I SPOKE ABOUT THE OPTIONS OF SUICIDE!!!!  NO, remember the two videos I posted SCREAMING & BITCHING LOUDLY AT GOD ? - Those two YouTube left up but made them 18 or over. But they were OK with leaving them viewable! (I decided to make them unlisted! I did!). But Now, EVEN WITH THE TITLE SAYING I CHANGED MY MIND, and I DID NOT HOLLER OR YELL IN THIS 3RD ON EITHER! I didn't show ANY images like YOUTUBES POLICY STATES, and THEIR WARNING SAYS! NOTHING TO BLUR OUT!!!! So I appealed it! They said they will review it again and give me an email within 72 HOURS; it took less then 5 minutes!!!!!!!!!!! Guess What? The video is over 30 minutes long! In less than 5 they DENIED my appeal ! Can anyone explain to me how they can WATCH and LISTEN to a 30+ minute long video in less than 5 minutes? I'm having trouble understanding this. BUT, I know why they di...

WOW, A MILE STONE for me! An INCH STONE to the "BIG CHANNELS"

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HEY! THIS IS A MILE STONE!  MY FIST VIDEO TO HIT 10K!  Posted January 22, 2020. Only a Four Year Old! AND get this; it's my First Ever CHOP JOB! I just wanted to share that with the "younger or newer" channels who might be wondering how long does it take to gain subs & grow views, and what it takes. LOL it takes time, consistency, dedication, imagination, and a fraction of your heart & soul, ..,,..,,.. but Do Not Be Discouraged young creator! No matter your age, sex, race, color, height, weight, width ,. Or depth, If You Can Build Models & Miniatures, You can build a really cool and interesting channel ! ! ! You Might be holding back a very Special Gift that the world has never seen yet! SO DO IT! DON'T BE AFRAID TO TRY IT! If one thing don't work for you try something else, not the same thing (ESPECIALLY like everyone else: that's the most boring there is!) And, if that something didn't work out like you planned or hoped, do N...

Letter to "Good Old Girlfriend' just recently... I want you all to read this to!

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Aint she BEAUTIFUL? Good "bright sunny" Sunday Morning back to you young lady. I hope your day is full of Grace & Gladness. God only knows how mine was 'Given', or taken... I can't believe you didn't see the Lion in the back of his head, but not knowing what to look for it's understandable. But when I first seen it i couldn't help say OMG over n over. I believe He puts things Infront of us, sometimes maybe just to see if we notice "Him". Being a cat, that I know He put Infront of me, that night, to trip on,,, if I didn't notice... was definitely designed & created and this particular one was also "hand-picked" or "programmed" to be the one the Marvin & I were needing at that very points in time. He's as to me, God's little Lion, sent to encourage "us" and help protect us with bravery of the heart: to show me what that means, as an example, both outwards & inwards. When I f...

Bitching about being BLACK LISTED? What about me?

SO AM I! BUT I DON'T SEE VIDEOS MADE OF ME. NO ONE CARES ABOUT ME EVEN 20 YEARS AGO BEING BLACK LISTED FROM MECHANICAL DESIGN ENGINEERING FROM OSHKOSH TRUCK / I WORKED FOR US MILITARY ARM ON CONTRACT - I WAS FIRED BASED ON A DISABILITY!!! But I'm Gary Tanck, they can screw me over every they want.

Rant from deep last year

I'm just letting everyone know that I'm probably going to go insane pretty soon here, our US and my STATE government has violated my rights to pursue ANY kind of HAPPINESS, or anything else either!!! I CAN'T EVEN PURSUE MY COVID STIMULUS or SO-CALLED RELIEF money like millions of OTHER Americans got! That's because I am no longer a human being and they can treat me anyway they want! Even garnishing my tiny wages at 25% DURING THE COVID PANDEMIC EVEN, for a case that i WON in court, and shit I didn't even do! I've been calling the state governor Tony Evers and "they" won't help me either. After 1/2 talking to a "spokesperson" I didn't even finish and he just hangs up. And I was actually talking decent & calm then, even cried at times. No compassion. With a ton more stuff on your mind, like being garnished your tiny wages as a security guard at a rate of 25% for stuff you didn't even do, (like paying waushara county thousands of...